Lets take the first step........

sabi ko, magsusulat na ulit ako, but then again, last week ko pa ata sinabi un, so......... eto na.... tadaaaa

Today, unlike any other day, was a bit different, I did things that was spontaneous, spontaneous but with conviction, confidence and responsibility. ung tipong itatayo ko buhay ko kase ginawa ko un. well ganun naman ako, un sana ung gusto kong mangyare at pinilit na ginagawa, pero ngayon kase, ewan, basta you know when you did something beyond the usual. example.....

normal ka nang magluto ng itlog, ano mang luto yan, makakain mo parin naman, alam mo di perfect, though di mo naman talaga aim na gawing perfect, pero niluluto mo paren, go lang, prito lang, pero minsan, kahit same old routine, same old kitchen utensils, same old hands and time of the day lang din, after mo maluto ung itlog, it is somewhat better, tama ang pagkakaluto ng itlog, hindi nabasag ung gitna, walang bubble, perfectly nasa gitna ung pula nung itlog, indi nasunog ung ilalim, just perfect........ pero di mo xa masasabing perfection due to repitition, kase nung nagsalang ka ulet ng itlog, ganun parin, same old "OK" na pritong itlog ang naproduce mo..... gets ba???

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basa muna ng ilang chapters ng Psyren......


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yay, chapter 107 na.....

as i was saying, that feeling that you did something really good out of the ordinary, un ung nangyare kanina.......

instincts kicked in, and for me, and usually it does....... it worked for me.....

as someone ones told me, i really tend to over think things, maybe un ang rason kung bakit kahit parang spontaneous ang actions ko, it still works for me, kase i already thought it through, at kung bakit at some points ng buhay ko, ang hirap magdecide, kase i already thought it through.

in short, I am somewhat heartless and considerate at the same time. I am the two sides of a coin, I am not that average person, I really can't explain myself...........