I bought a map........

and now, i update my lakbayan map, nyahahahaha

My Lakbayan grade is B-!

How much of the Philippines have you visited? Find out at Lakbayan!

Created by Eugene Villar.

B-, improving, hehehe, next year...... lets go for B+, hahahaha

What the hell am I doing here?......

Creep
by Radiohead

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out again
She's running out
She runs runs runs

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here


what a weird song to sing to sleep a baby....... - life as we know it

Lets take the first step........

sabi ko, magsusulat na ulit ako, but then again, last week ko pa ata sinabi un, so......... eto na.... tadaaaa

Today, unlike any other day, was a bit different, I did things that was spontaneous, spontaneous but with conviction, confidence and responsibility. ung tipong itatayo ko buhay ko kase ginawa ko un. well ganun naman ako, un sana ung gusto kong mangyare at pinilit na ginagawa, pero ngayon kase, ewan, basta you know when you did something beyond the usual. example.....

normal ka nang magluto ng itlog, ano mang luto yan, makakain mo parin naman, alam mo di perfect, though di mo naman talaga aim na gawing perfect, pero niluluto mo paren, go lang, prito lang, pero minsan, kahit same old routine, same old kitchen utensils, same old hands and time of the day lang din, after mo maluto ung itlog, it is somewhat better, tama ang pagkakaluto ng itlog, hindi nabasag ung gitna, walang bubble, perfectly nasa gitna ung pula nung itlog, indi nasunog ung ilalim, just perfect........ pero di mo xa masasabing perfection due to repitition, kase nung nagsalang ka ulet ng itlog, ganun parin, same old "OK" na pritong itlog ang naproduce mo..... gets ba???

********** PAUSE **********

basa muna ng ilang chapters ng Psyren......


********** PAUSE **********

yay, chapter 107 na.....

as i was saying, that feeling that you did something really good out of the ordinary, un ung nangyare kanina.......

instincts kicked in, and for me, and usually it does....... it worked for me.....

as someone ones told me, i really tend to over think things, maybe un ang rason kung bakit kahit parang spontaneous ang actions ko, it still works for me, kase i already thought it through, at kung bakit at some points ng buhay ko, ang hirap magdecide, kase i already thought it through.

in short, I am somewhat heartless and considerate at the same time. I am the two sides of a coin, I am not that average person, I really can't explain myself...........

Para sa iyo, Kaibigang Architect, Isang tagay sa Tagumpay.........

isang malupet ng Congratulations sa iyong pareng dennis, isa ka nang ganap na arkitekto....

hindi ko man alam ang buong istorya sa likod ng landas na tinahak mo para makamit ang tagumpay na ito, laking tuwa ko na na napagtagumpayan mo ito.

click here to view list of passers

you came, you saw, you conquered the exam.....

may isa lang akong hiling, sa ating pagkikita, patingin naman ako ng ID ng isang architect....

at un nga pala, manlilibre ka pa, hahahaha

isang tagay para sa tagumpay ni Arch. Dennis Landicho

Saka ka na maghanap ng kapalit.......

nanganganib na masira ng tuluyan ang laptop ko.......

wag naman ngayon....

wala akong budget....... @_@

kung kelan naman naisipan kong magreformat, saka naman nagkaganito......

tsk tsk tsk

mukhang magagamit ko to the upmost usage ang aking ipod Touch........

A lot has changed.........

and lets start with this....

ang aking pagbabalik loob sa pagpopost.....

nyahay.....

to be continued....

Happy place........

When you down or alone

Bored or just want to bum around

Have problems or wants to make one

Rethinking your life or having flashbacks or reminiscing

You always go to you happy place, wherever that may be or if you even have one....

As for now, I am in my happy place, wherever that is, I am the only one who knows..... Hahahahha

As to the reason why I am here, secret ko na un, hahaha

O yeah, I forgot. Happy valentines and Welcome year of the tiger

I Am Superman..... NOT!!.....

I wish I was......

pero xempre indi ako si Superman.... or am I.... Hmmmm

isang malaking katangahan talaga ang isipin na kaya mong gawin ang lahat, kase inde talaga, INDE!

kung dati kaya ko, ngayon indi na....

Example:

kung sakaling nagkataon na mahilig ako magbasa ng libro (sabi sa inyo example lang e, d pa naman ako nagbabago, I still hate reading, hahaha) nung bata pa ako, nung nagaaral pa, nung mga panahon na un, kayang kaya ko, at gustong gusto ko magbasa...... pero pagtanda ko, lumabo mata ko, so kahit gustong gusto kong magbasa, indi ko na kayang maging ganun ka-Into sa pagbabasa unlike nung bata pa ako, though kaya ko parin, mahihirapan at todo effort na ako, para makabasa man lang kahit konti......

un ang isa sa mga nararamdaman ko ngayon, (one of a very long list of things I am figuring out right now) ang mag-grow apart sa mga bagay bagay na dati ay gustong gusto kong gawin, mga taong gustong gusto ko makasama, mga kwentuhang gustong gusto kong topic, mga gimick at lakad na gustong gusto kong puntahan, mga taong gustong gusto ko kausap..... pero ngayon...... pero.....

though some are still there (Thanks) growing up and growing old only leads to 2 things....

either we grow apart or we grow together.....

Growing Apart does not exactly mean magkaaway na kayo, or magkagalit, its just that, your interests are not that in-sync, hindi na swak, kung baga, not like before, ngayon, ang mga hilig nyo, indi na lahat pareho, ung ibang, pinagsawaan mo na, ung iba andun parin, and sometimes, you learn to love or enjoy something new, something fresh, something I am not interested AT ALL. And there is only one reason for that, we grew apart.......

Growing Together on the other hand is contradicting growing apart but still similar. It does not exactly mean na sabay kayo lumaki or something, it just means that your common interest grew to the next level. kung baga kung hilig nyo umakyat ng hagdan hanggang 2nd floor, ngayon hangang 3rd floor na. this may also mean that different people, who discovered a new way of living, a new interest and you both caught yourselves wanting that same thing on the same level.

whether we like it or not, this will happen, either of the two.....

but for now, I think I will try to be Superman just a little bit more, maybe.... just maybe, I am Superman........ and if so, that would be really really great.

Ayaw ko na talaga.........

ayaw ko na talaga maghalf day......

ayaw ko na talaga...... d na ako natutuwa sa ginagawa ko, kase naman, kase naman, kase naman......

pinipilit ko nang magising even just on time to get my self to work before 10, pero ewan.....

puro dahilan at katamaran lang to, need to get past this..... kailangan, as soon as possible......

as in bukas na......

Pustiso ka ba........

Mahal Kita Kasi
by Nicole Hyala

Bangin ka ba kasi
nahuhulog na ako sayo
naman kasi

Unggoy ka ba kasi
sumasabit ka sa puso ko
naman kasi

Pustiso ka ba kasi
you know I can’t smile without you

Pagod na pagod na ako
maghapon ka na kasing tumatakbo sa isipan ko
kasi naman
kasi mahal kita

Bagay tayong dalawa
pa-picture nga
para mapadevelop kita
Hindi tayo tao hindi rin tayo hayop
Bagay tayo, bagay talaga

Papupulis kita
kasi ninakaw mo ang puso ko
naman kasi

Kuto ka ba kasi
palagi ka sa ulo ko
naman kasi

Apoy ka ba kasi
Alab… alab…
I love you

Magsalbabida ka nga
Kasi baka malunod ka sa pag-ibig ko
kasi naman kasi
Mahal kita

Bagay tayong dalawa
pa-picture nga
para mapadevelop kita
Hindi tayo tao hindi rin tayo hayop
Bagay tayo, bagay talaga

Kamuka mo si Papa P, Dingdong
Papa P
Papa P, Dingdong

Exam ka ba kasi
Sasagutin kita agad agad
Naman kasi

Drugs ka ba kasi
Kaka-adik ka kasi kasi
naman kasi

Kulangot ka ba kasi
you’re really really hard to get

Posporo ka ba?
eh di posporo rin ako para match
kasi naman kasi
mahal kita

Bagay tayong dalawa
pa-picture nga
para mapadevelop kita
Hindi tayo tao hindi rin tayo hayop
Bagay tayo, bagay talaga

Pustiso ka ba kasi
I really really can’t smile without you


*****

KYOT!!!!!

hahaha

graduate na ako dyan........

iba na ngayon, kapag gusto, TARA NA, kapag ayaw, MAIWAN KA DYAN.........

sayang lang ang effort, effort na tinulog ko na lang sana or I-nilaro ng PSP, or nagFacebook, mas worth it pa sana........

ganito lang yan e....

























O diba, simple lang......

:D

pasensya, pero masaya na akong ganito, and not that ayaw ko na ng mga ganyang klaseng gala, ang sa akin lang, hindi mo na ako maasahan magayos ng ganyan......

Sorry........

A Special Someone in Their Special Event.........

The time has come, where invitations from friends, collegemates, schoolmates, officemates and close relatives (whom you actually know) sends you a letter, text message, facebook post or email of their special event in their lives............. and this is more personal than the usual invitations.....

nung ako ay mas bata pa. ilang beses na akong naimbitahan sa mga kasal, binyag at iba pang mga pagtitipon, pero hindi as ako. ung tipong kasama lang ako kase anak ako ng nanay ko, dahil kaibigan ako ng isa sa mga kapatid ng kinasal, at dahil anak ako ng nanay ko.

nag-ninong na ako sa binyag dahil anak ako ng kaibigan ng nanay ng bininyaga
nag-abay na ako dahil anak ako ng kaopisina ng babaeng kinasal
nag-abay na ako dahil kamag-anak ko sila (na nung time na un, sino sila, ow.... anak ng kamag-anak ko na indi ko naman lubos na kilala)
umattend na ako sa ilang mga kasal at binyag dahil lang sa ang invitation ay naka-address sa Qu@n F@m|ly
umattend na ako sa isang libing dahil sa kamag-anak sila ng magulang ko or dahil sa homeowner sila ng village namin

hindi naman sa nagrereklamo ako or ayaw ko, the thing is, naimbitahan ako, out of formality, kind and pamparami ng tao. indi dahil sa kailangan andun ako or dahil gusto nilang andun ako......

But now, things are getting a little bit more personal. Every part of the ceremony, i can really relate, jokes and comments made on receptions i can now relate and laugh at, I can even comment on them and share my own life experiences to the event. Its like i deserve to be there, I earned to be there, They wanted me to be there.......

and for that, thanks...... Thank You Very Much.............

World Without Strangers........

sometimes, its easier to talk to strangers..... its as simple as that.

kapag isang estranghero ang kausap mo, pede kang maging kahit sino.

for instance.....

everytime na sasakay ako ng taxi, at nagkataon na isang makwento, madaldal at matanong na driver ang nasakyan ko, iba ibang pagkatao ang pinapakilala kong ako.

naging boyfriend na ako na bumibisita ng girlfriend.
naging kaibigan na ako ng ikakasal na.
naging single parent na.
naging athlete na lumalaban sa triathlon.
naging businessman na may-ari ng ilang franchise.
naging problem child at blacksheep ng pamilya.
naging suicidal.
naging gala na lumayas ng bahay.
naging batang manager sa isang company.
naging college student.
naging balikbayan.
naging Hosto (nang minsan nakwento na galing akong Japan, stereotype nga naman).
...... at maraming marami pang iba.

when talking with a stranger, you can be anybody or you can be your naked self, as in buong buhay mo ikwekwento mo sa kanya.

Though the reactions and response will vary from honest, violent and patronizing.

Bottomline is, kapag Estranghero ang kausap mo, pede kang maging kahit sino, pede mong ikwento ang buhay mo na walang sinuman ang nakakaalam, ang ikwento ang mga natatagong lihim mo, O di naman kaya ay maagimbento ng buhay, ikwento ang pangarap mong buhay bilang buhay mo........ either way, you will never cross paths again........ (optimistically)

I Am Thinking to much.........

AND I REALLY HATE TO THINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kaya nga tuwang tuwa ako nung grumaduate ako e, ibig sabihin, indi na ako pwersadong magaral.... este magpanggap na nagaaral. I am a living proof na indi kailangang magaral para pumasa, stock knowledge lang OK na.

today, hindi ako pumasok. for some reason na indi pa clear sa akin, one thing is certain, pagmulat ng mata ko, ayaw kong tumayo, at sinasabi ng utak ko, magpahinga ka nga, dami mong iniisip.....

mula nung nagising ako ng 5a.m. hanggang sa naisipang kong tumayo, magtext na indi ako papasok at magalmusal, nakadilat lang ako, nakatunganga, pilit iniiwasang magisip ng kahit ano.

nung tumayo ako at nagasikaso na ng mga pang araw araw na gawain, narealize ko, andami ko ngang iniisip.

from work, to personal life, to future, to family, to friends, to problems, to goals, to dreams, to mistakes, to stupidities, to achievements, to every step (literally, binibilang ko ang bawat hakbang ko) and to other more things........

aside from those, andami kong pinapasok sa buhay ko, dahil sa gusto ko ng mas active na lifestyle. new responsibilities, new sports, new hobbies, new rules, new activities, new ME, lahat lahat.

sa nauna kong post dito, sabi ko, madami akong gusto gawin ngayon taon, na ambisyoso at taon na ito para sa akin..... but now, parang mali.... inumpisahan ko lahat, indi ko tuloy alam kung matatapos ko, kung maipagpapatuloy ko, kung kaya kong pangatawanan. ako ung tipo ng tao na gusto ko, kapag sinimulan ko, tatapusin ko. I will see it through the end. pero ewan. parang naburnout ako sa dami ng gusto kong magawa, nang gusto kong maaccomplish, na gusto kong maachieve.

mali ba na magset ng maraming goals, it brings direction to my life, I know, pero magulo, mahirap.

lets top it all up with my double life-ish na pamumuhay, ang lintek na taong ginulo ang buhay ko noon at eto ngayon at nagbabalik para guluhin ulit ang buhay ko..... ang kalokohan kong ayaw kong ayusin.

EWAN!!! basta, kaya ko to, maayos ko to....... kaya to........ ano man ang mangyare at kahinatnan nito, the bottomline is..... buhay ko to..... atleast i am living it the way i made it to..... indi dahil ito ang sinabi sa akin na buhay ko......

It's My Life
by Bon Jovi
This ain't a song for the brokenhearted
No silent prayer for the faith departed
And I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder, make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky, gotta make your own breaks

It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

You better stand tall
When they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break
Baby, don't back down

It's my life
It's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!

Them, The Favored and Us......

This is simply my own opinion, and any form of disrespect and any form of negative reaction this may cause is sincerely unintentional....... parang may masama lang akong gagawin e no..... hahahaha

as all of us know, campaign season na naman, unofficially starting na, sa dami ng advertisement at mga commercial at mukha ng mga politiko sa likod ng mga bus. billboards at kahit sa kahon at bote ng mga inumin, nagkalat na sila, posisyon na lang na tinatakbuhan ang kulang....... kase bawal pa...

anyway, let me break the tittle down first.....

Them, sila na mayayaman.
The Favored, sila na laging pinapaburan ng mga politiko, sila na ayon sa survey at census e ang majority ng population ng ating mahal na bansa.
Us, ang middle class.

Naiinis lang ako na, hindi fare ang treatment sa lahat. na maxadong hiwalay ang tatlo, seriously sa aking pananaw, kawawa ang middle class, dahil ang middle class ang sumasalo ng lahat ng problema.......

I can go on with this topic pero I choose to stop. I know na indi magaagree sa akin ang lahat and i accept that, kase tulad ng opinion ko, opinion nyo yan, and i have no hold on it. the thing is, I said it, nasabi ko na indi ako OK sa nangyayare ngayon. ang consistent na pagpabor sa "The Favored". Indi lang sila ang tao sa mundo.

Optimistically andami kong naiisip na ways para magawa ang mga pinapangako ng mga pulitiko na yan na indi na papampered maxado ang mga "The Favored". long term solutions that will help everyone, not just them. solutions that would really get us going forward, and not just the shortcut to that seat you are running for.

This is one of those really rare occassions that i would talk about this. I AM NOT A REGISTERED VOTER so i really don't have the right to complaint, and I am not. Atleast nasabi ko ngayon kung ano ang naiisip ko. un lang.

I maybe optimistic and unrealistic. Pero seriously makabayan ako....... I could not see myself living in another country aside from ours. and someday, I can really make a difference, that someday, I can do more than what I am doing right now........

hayyyyzzzz

May oras pang natitira.....

Once you start something, you better see it through the end.

there is no turning back once you take that first step.

maraming beses ko nang pinatupad/ginawa/inapply to sa buhay ko.

bago mo pasukin ang isang bagay, ilang ulit kitang tatanungin kung seryoso ka, kung go ka, kung talagang gusto mo, bibigyan kita ng mga rason para tumuloy at indi tumuloy, pero kapag pinili mong tumuloy, OK lang, tara enjoy, tara go.

pero once andun ka na, at umayaw ka, indi kita tatantanan, ano man ang mangyare, kailangan matapos mo, kailangan gawin mo ng buong buo, sinimulan mo yan, dapat matapos mo.

hindi pede ung gusto ko lang, hindi pede ung kailangan mo lang, DAPAT, kaya mo din. kung hindi mo man kaya, dapat kayanin mo, ginusto mo e, kinailangan mo.

Puso

by Spongecola

Hinihingal ka lang
May oras pang natitira
Kahit parang ang layo pa
Habol

Kung harangan ka man
Sumalakay man mga bantay
Lahat kami Maghihintay
Habol, habol!

Refrain:
Dehado kung dehado
Para sa'n pang mga galos mo
Kung titiklop ka lang
Titiklop ka lang
Matalo kung matalo
Huwag ka sanang magkakamaling
Sumuko na lang
Woah

Maagawan ka man
Lalung huwag kang papipiga
Kumpiyansa lang bawat bangga
Woah

Kumaripas ka na
Humanda ka na sa paglipad
Pakpak nati'y ilalantad
Woah

Repeat Refrain

Chorus:
Ang puso
Iaalay
Sa laban
Kapalit ay tagumpay

Ang puso
Iaalay
Sa laban
Kapalit ay tagumpay

Repeat Refrain

Ang puso
Ialay
Sa laban
Kapalit ay tagumpay

Chorus:
Ang puso
Iaalay
Sa laban, sa laban, sa laban, sa laban mo

Intrumental

Coda:
Ang puso
Iaalay
Sa laban
Kapalit ay tagumpay
(Repeat thrice)

It's pretty logical if you think about it......

Viva La Vida
by Coldplay

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never
Never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world

It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in.
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become

Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world


**and now, here is an explanation done by someone in yahoo! Answer


It is a very literal interpretational ballad of Napoleon in the moments before his death in exile. I believe it is on Napoleon because of the Heavy French Classical influence coursing through the song as well as the Album cover, being a French Revolutionary Painting. Who else in France had a shot at ruling the world?

The first three verses are where he recounts his former glory ("Old king is dead, long live the king") when he was going to rule the world, and how he held such power over his enemy. ("I used to rule the world/ Roll the dice") And then he tells of his downfall, when he sees that he cannot rule the world, and how he has become the lowest.("Now in the morning/ sweep the streets I used to own/ the walls were closed on me") Sweeping is a nobody job, so He is saying that he is now a nobody.

The chorus, which varies progressively, is a realization that he sees his own death. (Bells and Choirs would ring and sing, respectively, during a Funeral Procession, in some cases) "Mirror Sword and Shield" could mean that he is awaiting heaven, since the three are very Christian symbols. "Missionaries" is another Christian allusion, but appears to be useless, unless referring to that he is asking that a room in Heaven be prepared for him. "For Some Reason I can't explain, once you go..." appears to be a filler line, since it takes a different meaning later on. "That was when I ruled the world" is just a reprising line that sounds good. It restates that he no longer is glorious, and will die soon.

All the way from "Wicked and Wild wind" to "Oh who would ever want to be king" is a remembrance of his own rise to power and use of it. Also, because the French would Execute using the Guillotine, the "head on a silver plate" line also is an Allusion to Napoleonic France, as well as John the Baptist's death.

The second Chorus is the same, save for the line, "I know saint peter won't call my name". this is Napoleon saying he won't go to heaven since he was a tyrant. Saint Peter calling a name is symbolic of dying and going to Heaven.

There is an instrumental bridge where I suppose you could say Napoleon realizes death is inevitable, and accepts it, while the music becomes stronger.

The final Chorus has the change of "I know Saint peter won't call my name" to "I know Saint Peter WILL call my name" Saying that Napoleon accepts his death. You can imagine Napoleon Closing his eyes at the words "When I ruled the world"

The song ends with a choir singing the main chords in harmony, in a sad, thoughtful fadeout, suggesting Napoleon is dead.

And then i realized.

why do i always wait other people to tell me what is wrong or good, what to do and not to do, if in the first place, I already know what they are, which is which, what is what and all other sorts.

But still, I only do and realize things when they are told to me.

atleast now i read (well it would be much better if it was told to me directly) that some things are quite logical and straight forward, maybe now, I don't need that push from some other people.

2010 na nga pala.......

Happy new year.....

new life? I guess, well I'm trying.....

but its not going to be as easy as i tought.

I already planned out what are the things i will do and accomplish this year....

and i must say, it is no joke.

marami sila, maraming marami.

but i will make it happen.....

again.....

HAPPY NEW YEAR....

isang umaatikabong bakbakan na 2010