After all the wait for "the stars to align" I think it already is.
I am both being drawn and pushed to the place that I should be in.
This will be a good year for me, A toast for this year, it will be great, I can just feel it in my gut.
All the blur is clearing out, and what I see is something I always wanted, I don't know where, when or with whom, but the how and why is clear to me.
I think I discovered a new reason, so now I have 4, and that reason, is nearing its end.
Right now everything is a mess, everything is uptight and strict, but soon, the calm will come and all will be clear, all will be ok for me to make my move.
Monday, April 9, 2012
Play to win......
That is, If I am playing the game.
I don't like the spotlight, I don't like the title, I don't like to compete, compete for something I am not interested in.
I do things in my own phase and my own way, and if along the road there is someone who wants it more than I do, fine, its all yours, I will not waste my time and effort to compete against you. I rarely compete, I rarely turn on my competitiveness. But when I do, I am in it for the win.
I really don't see the sense in playing the game if you are not in it for the win. Of all the things that I do, you will certainly know if I am doing it for the win or just because I can.
I rarely get disappointed because whenever I fail, I fail without giving much effort, I failed because I never planned to win.
I am not saying that I never loose, its just that, when I want to win, I will do everything to win.
And it has worked for me. Given that there is a challenge, I do it, If I am not in it for the win, when I loose, its OK, when I win, Yay. If I am in it to win, when I win, its well deserved, But when I loose, I sulk, then I challenge myself to do better next time.
It sounds good and looks like a win - win situation but its not, it takes a lot from me. I push myself to my own limits, to be better, to win, to reach that goal, but at the same time. I train myself to not give in to all the temptations. Being competitive, for me, is really easy, competing, not letting anyone beat me to anything is a walk in the park, answering all those taunts and challenges to do something better is everyday for me, and maybe for anyone, lot of people out there take pride and joy of winning over small things like being the first one to talk, be the first one to explain a common knowledge, having the right time to say "I Told You So", getting noticed first, finishing things first and a lot more, the list is long, too long for me to trouble myself. So I do what I think is the best solution, I ignore.
Do the things I do with pride and effort, do things at a 100% for me and not for anyone, doing the best that I can do and not do things just to be better than someone I know. Doing things the best that I can do rather than doing things just for you.
No one will give a 100% for me aside from me, well maybe, there will be, someone out there, someone might, but no one will do this for me, so might as well do it myself.
"Play to win" that was what my friend said while playing cards, So I did. But I choose the games that I play.
Play to win, I wonder what game I will play next.
I don't like the spotlight, I don't like the title, I don't like to compete, compete for something I am not interested in.
I do things in my own phase and my own way, and if along the road there is someone who wants it more than I do, fine, its all yours, I will not waste my time and effort to compete against you. I rarely compete, I rarely turn on my competitiveness. But when I do, I am in it for the win.
I really don't see the sense in playing the game if you are not in it for the win. Of all the things that I do, you will certainly know if I am doing it for the win or just because I can.
I rarely get disappointed because whenever I fail, I fail without giving much effort, I failed because I never planned to win.
I am not saying that I never loose, its just that, when I want to win, I will do everything to win.
And it has worked for me. Given that there is a challenge, I do it, If I am not in it for the win, when I loose, its OK, when I win, Yay. If I am in it to win, when I win, its well deserved, But when I loose, I sulk, then I challenge myself to do better next time.
It sounds good and looks like a win - win situation but its not, it takes a lot from me. I push myself to my own limits, to be better, to win, to reach that goal, but at the same time. I train myself to not give in to all the temptations. Being competitive, for me, is really easy, competing, not letting anyone beat me to anything is a walk in the park, answering all those taunts and challenges to do something better is everyday for me, and maybe for anyone, lot of people out there take pride and joy of winning over small things like being the first one to talk, be the first one to explain a common knowledge, having the right time to say "I Told You So", getting noticed first, finishing things first and a lot more, the list is long, too long for me to trouble myself. So I do what I think is the best solution, I ignore.
Do the things I do with pride and effort, do things at a 100% for me and not for anyone, doing the best that I can do and not do things just to be better than someone I know. Doing things the best that I can do rather than doing things just for you.
No one will give a 100% for me aside from me, well maybe, there will be, someone out there, someone might, but no one will do this for me, so might as well do it myself.
"Play to win" that was what my friend said while playing cards, So I did. But I choose the games that I play.
Play to win, I wonder what game I will play next.
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