I Am Thinking to much.........

AND I REALLY HATE TO THINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kaya nga tuwang tuwa ako nung grumaduate ako e, ibig sabihin, indi na ako pwersadong magaral.... este magpanggap na nagaaral. I am a living proof na indi kailangang magaral para pumasa, stock knowledge lang OK na.

today, hindi ako pumasok. for some reason na indi pa clear sa akin, one thing is certain, pagmulat ng mata ko, ayaw kong tumayo, at sinasabi ng utak ko, magpahinga ka nga, dami mong iniisip.....

mula nung nagising ako ng 5a.m. hanggang sa naisipang kong tumayo, magtext na indi ako papasok at magalmusal, nakadilat lang ako, nakatunganga, pilit iniiwasang magisip ng kahit ano.

nung tumayo ako at nagasikaso na ng mga pang araw araw na gawain, narealize ko, andami ko ngang iniisip.

from work, to personal life, to future, to family, to friends, to problems, to goals, to dreams, to mistakes, to stupidities, to achievements, to every step (literally, binibilang ko ang bawat hakbang ko) and to other more things........

aside from those, andami kong pinapasok sa buhay ko, dahil sa gusto ko ng mas active na lifestyle. new responsibilities, new sports, new hobbies, new rules, new activities, new ME, lahat lahat.

sa nauna kong post dito, sabi ko, madami akong gusto gawin ngayon taon, na ambisyoso at taon na ito para sa akin..... but now, parang mali.... inumpisahan ko lahat, indi ko tuloy alam kung matatapos ko, kung maipagpapatuloy ko, kung kaya kong pangatawanan. ako ung tipo ng tao na gusto ko, kapag sinimulan ko, tatapusin ko. I will see it through the end. pero ewan. parang naburnout ako sa dami ng gusto kong magawa, nang gusto kong maaccomplish, na gusto kong maachieve.

mali ba na magset ng maraming goals, it brings direction to my life, I know, pero magulo, mahirap.

lets top it all up with my double life-ish na pamumuhay, ang lintek na taong ginulo ang buhay ko noon at eto ngayon at nagbabalik para guluhin ulit ang buhay ko..... ang kalokohan kong ayaw kong ayusin.

EWAN!!! basta, kaya ko to, maayos ko to....... kaya to........ ano man ang mangyare at kahinatnan nito, the bottomline is..... buhay ko to..... atleast i am living it the way i made it to..... indi dahil ito ang sinabi sa akin na buhay ko......

It's My Life
by Bon Jovi
This ain't a song for the brokenhearted
No silent prayer for the faith departed
And I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder, make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky, gotta make your own breaks

It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

You better stand tall
When they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break
Baby, don't back down

It's my life
It's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!