sore loser............

it took me N number of times before i could honestly say it, but yes, i am a sore loser.

not in the way that i complain, its just that i have a hard time accepting that defeat, after every defeat, i always stay quiet for a while, try to isolate myself from other people, or divert my attention and suddenly loose interest as to what we were playing.

i know its normal, and OK, but still, nakakainis na ganito ako, ayaw ko ng ganun.....

pero indi un ang main reason kung bakit blog entry ako ngayon.

for the last few days and weeks, napansin ko at narealize ko na subrang daming bagay na ang ayaw ko sa sarili ko. subrang dami nang bagay ang usual ko nang ginagawa na ngayon ko lang narealize na mali pala, d ko pala dapat ginagawa, na maling mali pala. and it really sucks to know na ngayon ko lang nalaman. parang nagkaroon ng part sa buhay ko na nagflashback ako bigla at puro masasamang bagay lang na ginagawa ko dati ang nakita ko.

kaya dapat magbago, magbago ng todo. alam ko na ung mga dapat kong baguhin, kailangan ko na lang ng conviction to stick with it.

IKOU IKOU IKOU!!!!!!